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when you feel as if you've been living under a rock? I get them all the time, because I do happen to live under a rock, and I like it. It rocks. :P But, today, I had another HOW-did-I-not-know-about-this-before moments.

Spurred by an interesting post made by

litlover12 about taking the Myers-Briggs test for kicks, I took the test she linked to as well, and ended up INTJ as a result. Well, I had no idea what that meant, having little interest in psychology, so I naturally turned to my BFF Wikipedia.

First off, INTJ is supposed to be one of the rarest personality types. Fascinating. I always did feel very different from other people. Like an alien among humans, or a human among aliens, depending on my mood and whether I felt that I or the rest of the world was more weird. Guess the best way to describe it is this: I felt like a mutant from the X-Men universe, only without any cool powers. No adamantium claws for me. :(

Second, INTJ types are quiet and reserved. Bingo!

Third, the article quoted Marina Margaret Heiss, which quote I'll enclose in full, because it really floored me.

"INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake ... INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play ... Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel ... This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals ... Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense."

ZOMG you guys! That's practically my biography right there. As Syndrome from The Incredibles would say, I'm still geeking out about it.

Fourth, INTJ types like to be alone and don't like to lead, unless there's nobody else qualified to do the job. That's me again.

Fifth, another long quote, straight from the article, because summarizing it is impossible for me.

"In forming relationships, INTJs tend to seek out others with similar character traits and ideologies. Agreement on theoretical concepts is an important aspect of their relationships. By nature INTJs can be demanding in their expectations, and approach relationships in a rational manner. As a result, INTJs may not always respond to a spontaneous infatuation but wait for a mate who better fits their set criteria. They tend to be stable, reliable, and dedicated. Harmony in relationships and home life tends to be extremely important to them. They generally withhold strong emotion and do not like to waste time with what they consider irrational social rituals. This may cause non-INTJs to perceive them as distant and reserved; nevertheless, INTJs are usually very loyal partners who are prepared to commit substantial energy and time into a relationship to make it work.

As mates, INTJs want harmony and order in the home and in relationships. The most independent of all types, INTJs trust their intuition when choosing friends and mates—even in spite of contradictory evidence or pressure from others. The emotions of an INTJ are hard to read, and neither male nor female INTJs are apt to express emotional reactions. At times, INTJs seem cold, reserved, and unresponsive, while in fact they are almost hypersensitive to signals of rejection from those they care for. In social situations, INTJs may also be unresponsive and may neglect small rituals designed to put others at ease. For example, INTJs may communicate that idle dialogue such as small talk is a waste of time. This may create the impression that the INTJ is in a hurry—an impression that is not always intended. In their interpersonal relationships, INTJs are usually better in a working situation than in a recreational situation."

Okay. I'm really, really freaking out now. High expectations in a mate, not prone to infatuation, and willing to wait? Check. I've never had a boyfriend, and never wanted one, because I've yet to meet someone I'd willingly put up with.

Hypersensitive to rejection from loved ones? Check. No interest in small talk? Triple check. I hate waiting for price checks as a cashier because it forces me to try to make small talk, and I stink at it. What do you say when there's nothing to be said?

I think I may have a little bit of interest in psychology now, other than just the behavioral analysis employed in Criminal Minds.

I'm still geeking out about this. I've never seen such an accurate description of myself before. I'd always flattered myself nobody would be able to "get" me but me. I'm not sure whether I should be excited or dismayed. :/